Thursday, 1 January 2015


Just some thoughts.

So it's the first day of 2015, and everywhere people are talking about the 'New Year, New Me' crap. Everyone's talking about how different they're gonna be, how they're gonna change, what they're gonna do and all that stuff. I have nothing against people and their new year's resolution, actually. It's good to have something you want to accomplish, a goal in life, a purpose in your life, of course it's good to have all that. It's just my personal problem. My personal problem of not believing in 'new year's resolutions'. I just think that, if you really want to change, if you really want to do something differently than before, why do you have to wait for a new year? Why do you need to wait for the year to increase by one before you can take control of your life and change the things in your life that you do not like or want? For example, you want to get better results in exams, start studying now; you want to get richer, get working now; you want to lose a few pounds, exercise now; you want to do more good deeds, do it now; you want to quit all the bad habits, start trying now. WHY do we have to wait for a whole new year before we can do all these things? 'New year, new beginning'? Everyday should be a new beginning. Now is what's important. Sure, your future's important too, but it's all affected by what you do now, isn't it? I don't know. I just think that for 31/12/2014 to become 1/1/2015, it's just another day passing. Every day matters. Besides, are things going to change, really? Be honest. Be honest. It's not going to.

I don't believe in 'new years' and all these things, I don't believe things are gonna get better JUST because it's another year. But ironically, I don't believe in it, but I want to. I hope I can again.

On the side note, I had a pillow talk with one of my closest cousins all through midnight. It's been such a long time since we really had a heart to heart talk and all. Once upon a time we only get to see each other once a year. As we grow up, we are able to travel on our own and I did go visit her in another state, so we got to see each other twice a year. But now, she's studying here in the same state I'm staying in, but the times we get to see each other and really talk ironically decreased. Everyone's so busy with their works and lives and all. And as we grow older, our hearts are all being shielded up more and more, so it's becoming increasingly difficult to be able to voice up what we really feel in us compared to before. It's really so close yet so far, mentally and physically speaking. But I'm glad she came over last night and we got to talk. It's been so long since I've had talks like this.

I really hope it'll happen, what I told my cousin, what I really really long for in my deep heart core.

I hope good things happen to everyone, new year or not.

Still, since we're on this,

Happy new year, I guess.